I realized today that in 10 days or less, I hope to have all 3 of the outside feral boys inside. When I say this phrase out loud, it feels like such a relief but it also does not come without trepidation. I have wanted for so long to have all of them inside a house; warm, safe and dry. Now this goal is just about upon me. It is very hard to put into words what this all means to me. I have spent 7 years worrying each and every day about the safety of the outside cats.
When my very first feral, Shadow came into my life, I had no idea what I was doing. Yet, I knew that he needed my help and I knew that I would help him. He and I learned along the way. I made a lot of mistakes along the way. Yet I grew from those lessons and other cats that came along benefited from my perseverance. Along the way, I encountered so many cats that needed my help. Unfortunately I was unable to save them all. It was never from a lack of trying my best.
I was thinking yesterday that if I knew back then what I knew now, I would have brought Shadow inside right away. Yet, I then would have missed knowing and helping so many other others. I cannot imagine a life without all of these cats. Each one has brought such joy into my life and I have learned so much from them.
I do believe that this life moment is one of the great sparkles of my life. I have planned and prepared as best as can. Most people do not understand what this means to me. I have been told that I am crazy, that it will never work as well as asked why I would devote so much time to these outside feral cats. I can only respond by saying that these feral boys are a part of my animal family and I love each and every one of them. They may never ever be seen by visitors to my home, they may be scared of every loud noise in the house and they may hide for long periods when their fear takes over. I do not see these as negatives. I instead choose to understand that their life is forever better with my help and love.
My holiday wish is that I am easily able to get Shadow, Stellar and Hampton into carriers and upstairs to their new room. I could use all of the positive energy that can be sent my way!
Happy Holidays to you all!